Well, it's getting down to the last month before I leave and I feel like I'm going insane. My car broke down and I can't justify the expense of fixing it when I'm leaving so soon, so I spend most of my time stranded at home, bored. Because I'm bored, I'm left to just think about my upcoming trip and, while I'm very excited about it, my obsessing over it has led to the manifestation of fears that I don't need. Such as, karaoke. What if I go to a bar in Tokyo and then a bunch of happy drunk Japanese businessmen buy me drinks and make me get on stage? Now that I actually write it out, I kind of feel silly. I mean, if I get on stage, I'm pretty sure the biggest risk I'm facing is slight embarrassment and I'm reasonably sure it would be awesome, still. To be fair, the obsessing has also led to me realizing things that I should buy that I maybe wouldn't have thought of(like hangers and a coffee press).
I received an email from the MSU financial aid office today saying that one of the grants I get every semester was pretty much cut in half. I mean, I pretty much have my money situation figured out, but I would really appreciate it if things stop trying to become complicated. If I have to sell a kidney, I'm still going to Japan, so it's in luck's best interest to stop trying to mess with me because I'm not backing off. I'm just saying that luck is wasting precious sabotage resources on me and should move on to some other person with less resolve.
It really is coming up fast, though. I have a week and a half left at my job and my going away party is coming up in like 2 weeks. It's hard to believe that something I've been working towards for the passed 2 years is finally happening. Not only is it happening, but I have yet to have sabotaged myself out of it!
Anyway, I just figured I'd check in because it's been a while.